Til today,i still wondering what friendship mean.sometime it easy 2 say then done.but 3 things i knew about friendship is 1. Someone you can trust 2.someone you can share all your happy and sad moment.. 3. Someone you can depend on aside our family..but too sad not all people know about it..even appreciate the relationship between themselve.. The most will hurt you is when your friend share her secrect to some of her/his friend while the other left unknown.. Why is that happen? Isn't we're friend?this show that person never treat your as a friend.they only come to you when they need something or in problem.. As for me that is 'BULLSHIT' good friends will SHARE all sad and happiness NOT only happiness.please those who had treat their friend so badly.do reconsider before all the memories fly with the wind.when that time come.it hard to catch back what special thing we ever owe.because GOOD THING ONLY COME ONCE.IF CAME FOR 2ND TIME YOU CONSIDER LUCKY.
To all my friends who ever come and go in my life.I love all..!no matter how the distance keep ur apart.we'll owez be good friends

OKEY THE PICTURES IF US.. STARVING HAHAHA.. ME AND LINA TOOK OUR DINNER WITH JUN WHILE OTHERS.. OF CAUSE OF THEIR HUBBY.. UHUK!UHUK!

atu c jun ia ne merajuk arh kami..hehehe..nda wah lappy nya low bat yth ia jauh dari kami

me and sheedah.. hahaha actually kami ada group discussion but after that masing2 buat krja sndiri... aku memanat skjap ambi gmbar urg...

ok!atu c erza, actually kan candid tapi ne sibuk2 tia meliat. hahaha...



concentrate brabis..

around 2+ pm kami ke lobby kan buat group discussion untuk health promotion presentation kami..

comment something..hahaha..

vain me..
hy!it had been a while i didn't update my blog..just a bit lazzzzzyyyy.....ok picture above i took on sunday.. well the special thing about this picture is 1st time i wear purple..well as u know i'm not a fan of purple but since it a gift so i just use it.. thank you! surely i love it baby..ACTUALY a lot of photo i wanted to upoad the problem is.. as usual.. SCUK connection..oh! BTW tomorrow we going to ICC for something i couldn't remember about it..uhuuk! don't care what is that.. the fact is we all going there organise by the college it self

today our last day of clinical..happy brabis..but then td before blik rasa sedih lah.. cause i've been treated my patient almost 1 month.. is that too long..?i think.. so before i'm going home i met up with my regular patients (lain bunyi nya hahaha) say the last goodbye to them.. you know how i feel when patient said thank you to me it really touched my heart.. there even pray for my succeed (sp?) isn't that great? just i disappointing cause can't even say the last goodbye to my best patient. cause when i enter to his room he sleep and i don't dare to wake him up..due to his bad condition this lately..so let him take a rest and i wishes he get well soon..

and not to forget, staff nurses in ward 22.. thank you for shared their knowledge a lot and it really help..nice doing business with them..cause most of them very friendly.. typically,not most but 100% of them friendly and sporting.. those who will be place in ward 22. don't waste your time learn more and more thing their cause it really hard find staff nurse who willing to teach.. like my current ward before.. i gain a lot in that ward. guess what i do in that ward for 3 week?
mostly sending patient to OT, CT SCAN, ECHO, ENDOSCOPY and etc..
but thank god this time i was placed in the best and ever ward.. so hope my next clinical placement will be best as this one..hehehe.. i think i'm sick.. running nose (sobs* sobs*)

i've listen to this song 'BROKEN STRING' and i don't know why it really get into my nerve..i even download the song and listen to it all over again there is some of it words really touched my soul..here the lyrics..song by James Morrison ft nelly furtado

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before


Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

okey!this few week i got hard time..
my patient which i often took care got of had a very bad fever.since this he done lumber puncture his health getting worst and worst each day.. i felt sorry for his condition i don't know in what way should help him.. all i can do to claim him down when he in pain..the sad thing is his health is getting worst and worst each day..imagine his body temperature keep on rising from 37.4c til 42.5c.. how can we stand on that kind of hot..only god known the pain.His eye started show changes to reddish.today i felt like want to have some kind of chat.but i changed my mind when i saw his condition it really hurt me.. he is shaking due to very high temperature.. all i can DO is putting wet small towel in this head and chest so it can lower down his temperature.. i wishes it will work..he told me he can stand the pain anymore.he have tried so hard to recover but then nothing seem to be work..and i told him not to give up.. please do believe in miracle.. i hope he get well soon and can continue his normal life tho it take time..but with god will everything is possible lastly may bless of god upon him..

been so so busy this few days.. soon i finish my clinical area i'll upload some of leftover story.. hehhe.. okey for now.need to get ready cause today i'm afternoon shift.. catch you guys if i'm free..

LOVE is another word for dedicating your life to your partner. You do not stray and you stay committed to the end. Love is based on undivided trust and commitment. Promises are made to be fulfilled. Complete loyalty is the essence of a loving relationship.

It sounds easy enough, but in reality this feature is often overlooked. It is an eternal promise that can never be adjusted to the wants of the moment. Unfortunate situations should not affect our unconditional love. Wealth and vanity are of no importance to a relationship. Love is the blessing that should be treasured. Life will test all of us.


The result for a couple should be a stronger bond. Fidelity is of the highest value. Infidelity is an attack on love for eternity. No circumstances of life should be capable of changing romance. A wedding is a unique decision and contract of love between two people. A loving relationship should not be based on money. Money has no importance so it does not affect our romance.

Changing looks should be disregarded. The commitment of your wedding day is a contract for eternity. Bad luck happens to any couple. It is never a deal breaker, no matter what society considers to be acceptable. Loyalty is constantly under attack. True love survives everything. The best advice for a couple on their wedding day is cherish and love forever regardless of changing situations. Blessings are upon those who are loyal and loving. Never consider infidelity.

The foundation of any relationship is LOVE and being TRUSTWORTHY. A relationship built on LIES cannot SURVIVE. Be truthful as soon as you start dating. LOYALTY is the ultimate contract that you should not breach. Betraying your loyal partner is the source of a lot of pain. Be the love of your partners’ life forever. There is never an excuse for messing up love. Self worth starts with fidelity and loyalty. Infidelity is the first step towards self-destruction.

love doesn't always to be hurt..those who know how to appreciate it they will defined it pleasure and valuable..you wouldn't say it LOVE til you feel hopeless and can't bear to be apart with your love one..

to my beloved HUBBY, sorry for can't be at your side i hope you understand ok.. but i wishes you get well soon.. i'm missing you so much.. really wishes to hear you laugh and play joke with me again.. okey i'll see you soon okey.. love and misd you baby!

i just got back from lumut.. i spend time with my family today..
last minute plan for BBQ but sorry i don't any picture for it..
too busy!but overall i've fun with them..
do missed them so much..
i love my family damn much..

happy valentine day for those who celebrate it..may today will full of love

MySpace Graphics & Myspace Layouts

to hubby FABIAN ALAM,i know you read this.. happy valentine's. today is the special dates not only for us but worldwide..i love you so damn much.forever til death separate us..keep my words i'm promise won't hurt you for second time..eventho we can't really celebrate it today due to certain reasons,it ok baby as long as you keep on going loving me each day.. that more than worth to me.. i'll cherish every moment we spend time together so that i won't regret when the time i need to lose you..

My snow ice-cream... yoghurt x ah.. ymmmy..yummy..


romantic x kami dua hahaha..


yummy..jgn jeles



me and jeerah


jeerah jun and farid.. driver kami ne..hahaha bdw tq!


farid teah and erza


teah dgn wajah iski nya..hahaha

ne environment di CHARMY SNOW ICE

okey this all of our pictures yesterday with my buddies at charmy snow ice...really nice place especially for those couple on dates.. as soon you sit you definely feel much like winter sonata..hahaha over!!

hello..guys..i know it kind of late.just want to share with you guys what i do today..
ok! firstly, i woke up at 11+am.. after that i took my shower and around 3.30pm i went out with my buddies.. we hang out at RTB carnival it kind of fun anyway we over enjoy ourself..

before went to RTB carnival we went to one of the ice cream shop i'm not sure what the name of the shop.. after that we took out late lunch at ayamku..( sobs.. elaun alum kuar.. sabar sja) right after we filled in our empty sack we directly went to RTB carnival..

after kmi round2 di ICC then ada tia this dewan riuh lah bunyi nya.so palagi kami masuk lah.. rupa nya ada dance competition. semua ada shuffle, slow dance and street dance. sudah tu kami round2 lah lagi.. then ada rumah antu.. pa lagi kami ne iski smua kan masuk nda mau2 jua tu.. after berbayar ticket kami Q lah tungu masa kan masuk.. di buat kan satu cerita, alum lagi apa2 si erza sma c zerah ne udah ketakutan tmbah lagi dangar urg berteriakan ne.. so less then 10min our turn tia pa lagi kami ne smua berpegangan tangan c jun paluk c farid rasa jua takut tu.. c erza baru pintu msuk pertama udah tia kan nangis mau balik.. balik2 majal sasak c taeh di tulak nya erza ke dalam mau nda mau paksa lah masuk..akhir nya dapat lah kmi abis kan tapi dalam perjalanan kami toward the end hanya tuhan sja tahu mum sampai tangan c farid berdarah..

but overall kami fun lah.. dalam kul 7pm kami ke dewan dance floor balik.. liat urg nari..around 9pm kami balik... semua kelaparan ne..after bali makanan kami bali lah sal c erza kan balik ke rumah kak bf nya..

i've dreamed about my late uncle.. just suddenly i woke up.i started sweating and my heart pounding.. oh ya i almost forgot about him.maybe he came to me to remain me how much i've forgot about him this lately.. i felt like i get pulled down further into the darknest meanest place of my brain and i start suffocating and feel like dying

To the people who lost somebody, it may seem the world just stop moving and that you could not believe it has happened to you. To tell you the truth, I never get over my late uncle. Everytime I think of it, my eyes filled with tears and recalled those moments again. What made matter worse that time, I was undergoing an important qualifying exam. It meant I couldn’t properly say goodbye. As far as I remembered, it was only the few hours of his death that I paid my last respect. I kept recalling those moments again and again where I just sat there as he laid there. My mind kept working out if the moments were real or were just bad dreams. Kept telling myself that I couldnt believed that he was gone already and that I was staring his lifeless body. He looked as alive as I remembered him to be. I didn’t really know what actually happen to him because he was gone so sudden. I couldn’t remember if he was sick or not. Everytime, I went to visit grandma, I felt something missing. Somehow, I wished I had spent more time talking with him.

Coming march,a few week to go it will be 7th year anniversary of his death I think. Though I don’t really remember how many years gone by but the month stays with me forever. Cause...it’s his month of birth. I miss him forever. There's always a saying that goes

you will never know what you are missing until it's gone

I believe that's true. I am going to cherish and love my family so much. As I grow to be more mature than I was yesterday, I learned to keep my family close to my heart. Eversince I got the place to study in bandar, I went through a lot! I missed my mom and my dad so very much that I didnt realised how much they sacrificed for me. It hit me hard and as years gone by, I began to show more love to them than I used to be before it is too late. I hope I have done what I am supposed to be doing as a grand daughter, daughter, sister and a friend..

can believed i cries again.. i'm missing him so badly.. i called my dad just now and he speechless.. like we almost forget his aniversary is coming soon.. i felt bad about it and a shame.

CONVERSATION WITH MY SIS- BERLINDA



ME AND HUBBY


ME SWEET HEHEHE...


CUTE ME

ok..ne odw balik ke bandar my sayang antar.. um..turun dari lumut around 5pm lah..then shopping makanan dapur.. we took our dinner at chinese restaurant. for sure.. after that singgah mall..hajat di hati kan check elaun..tapi.. huhuhu.. alum jua keluar.. daday.. i'm shortage of income...hehehe.. hopefully keluar lah karang...bdw today aku afternoon shift.. tadi bangun awal tarus ke lobby.. then chat with my sister berlinda..we chat alot of things.. GUESS? I HAVEN'T TOOK MY SHOWER.. my sister cakap aku busuk..tapi ia pn sama jua balum mandi..hahha.. ok lah.. aku kan siap2 makan lagi.. now 10:30am.. baju lagi alum iron..

ON SUNDAY GOT NOTHING SO JUST TOOK PICTURE OF MY SELF.. AND GUESS? I HAVEN'T TOOK MY SHOWER BY THIS TIME.BUT WHO CARE.. STILL I LOOK HOT TO FABIAN.. right sayang?

Labels: random pictures

This is really sweet........

When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering
how long you will be around.

When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.

When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.

When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person....

Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.