i spent my time with hubby right now...hehehe..

ok!after 3 weeks campus, today my 1st day of clinical area for second rotation.. currently at ward 11

umm.. kan cakap siuk nda jua.. but most important this ward too relex..haha.. ok lah next time lagi updated i just dropped by sja.. my pillow calling me.. 

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO US

may god bless our relationship..i do love you..hope this relationship lasting longer

thank you for always stand by my side when i happy and also when i'm hurt. 

no words that can describe how much i do want you in my life..

love and miss you so much 

 

again i being hurt by u.. i don't why every time i look onto your face, my heart beating faster, i breath every more vigorous..i try my best even more harder to forget what have you done to me but still i can.i tot I'm strong enough but actually here is my weakness.




it not I'm not learning to forgive and forget in fact i do want those thing away from me.. too far away from i don't want to have that feeling of hate..but I'm just a human..

to my baby, I'm sorry i put all the pressure on you.. i don't mean to shout at you..

ok!stress stress.. i really wishes to shout after i step out from OCSE skill lab.. huh!like I've done all PROCEDURE quite well for station 3 and 1 suddenly on station 2 i missed my BP procedure.. which i haven't done it due to BP set problem.. fuh! tot it was new BP set.. but still got problem with the Mercury.. damn!! i do hate this.. it totally freak me out. the bell is rang when i about to pump it.. oh!my god i wishes i could turn back and do the procedure again.. now all i can to pray that I'll pass.. i hope teacher could reconsider that.

god! i don't know how to express my feeling bbbuttt this mistake totally took my mood away..

all my friend went to the mall to celebrate this so-called "victory" hahaha.. well me? nah! I've no mood for that. my mind keep on thinking about my OSCE i really hope i could pass this exam. i want to maintain my OSCE result in fact I'm craving i could get much much better than last semester 2A 2B AND 1D.. since this semester we only perform 3 procedure. imagine ONLY 3 procedure.. i just depend on my luck now..

hello everbody!

it been a while i didn't update my blog.. coz this few days i been busy with campus,

OSCE revision ( oh! nooo..), while at night CHILLED with my buddies..

tomorrow will be BIG BIG day.. it my aniversary AND at same time my OSCE EXAM..(skill exam) fuh! now i'm a bit nervous and speechless. try to make my self COOL yup! i managed to do it but it just for a few minute..

i really hope everything will be ok and more even worst i'm this first session from skill lab 3

to my buddies.. good luck k.mudahan tah tani semua pass.. remember all the important procedure and do maintain the sterility

OK! This gonna be a very BIG issues. like all people been talking about this.. last saturday our principle informed us that our ALLOWENCE will be reduced from $ 370 to  $348? huh! that really make all of us down and broken hearted..

this gives difficulities to those who need to pay their laptop. foods for those stayed in hostel all other facilities..

more over we had so much differences with UBD. where we need to work at ward.. for other need to go for night shift and work on sunday too.. please lah for those who concern try to think about it..

supppose we will receive

$370 for 1st year

$570 for 2nd year and

$620 for 3rd year

but now on in DREAM..

hello!everybody..
i had a very good weekend anyway..NOTHING bothering me so far and that awesome! haha.. umm.. for more i spent lot lot of time with my baby.. actually we plan to watch movie but then we canceled the plan since he's super duper tired so i just went to his place we chat and watched movie together fuh! it been a while we don't do those thing since i moved to bandar.need to run after my future career tho this wasn't what i want.. and my boyfriends to he need to stay focus to his work.. this lately he been so busy due to urgent request.we only meet in weekend but not that often cause i need to spend my time with my family too.. more over he don't want to disturb me. see my boyfriend very2 understanding that what make me love him even more deeper each day.. hehehe.. thank you baby for understand our situation

i started to miss him right now..







this some of the shoot that i took..

Unusual Benefits of Friendship

Many benefits of friendship are well known. Friends offer

1. closeness with others,
2. a listening ear to share challenges or joys,
3. a shoulder to lean on when life is difficult,
4. companionship,
5. the ability to tell you the truth when others might not (assuming you want to hear the truth).One of the unusual benefits of friendship is you never have to worry about being homeless.

The importance of friendship? Ask homeless people.

Friends don't let friends live on the streets.

But the biggest benefit that friendships offer each of us, whether we're just entering daycare or a 90 year old great grandmother, is happiness.

Friends are an aid to the young, to guard them from error; to the elderly, to attend to their wants and to supplement their failing power of action; to those in the prime of life, to assist them in noble deeds. ---Aristotle

What price can you place on having one true best friend who's always there for you?

MAKING FRIEND IS FUN

Many people prefer the safety of being lonely because they're secure in their loneliness. Sounds bizarre, i know.

They don't have to risk rejection and a hurt heart if they approach others and others don't want to be friends.

One thing kids need to learn is that when people decide not to be friends with us, we don't always know the reason.

Lots of times it has nothing to do with whom we are as people. It's often about the other person.

And the thing about life is we all deal with rejection. Yet, we survive, we don't fall to pieces, life goes on.

Helping grasp they are beautiful, unique PERSON who deserve love and all the benefits of friendship that come from friends gives THEM the courage to make new friends.


-------> TO MY SISTER I AGREE WITH SOME OF THE TEXT YOU WROTE..

i want to watch this movie.. really i haven't watch it. i knew it kind of too late but who care.. my problem.

so now i'm craving for this next novel by Sophie kinsella

Lexi wakes up in a hospital bed after a car accident, thinking it’s 2004 and she’s a twenty-five-year old with crooked teeth and a disastrous love life. But, to her disbelief, she learns it’s actually 2007 - she’s twenty-eight, her teeth are straight, she’s the boss of her department - and she’s married! To a good-looking millionaire! How on earth did she land the dream life??!
She can’t believe her luck - especially when she sees her stunning new home. She’s sure she’ll have a fantastic marriage once she gets to know her husband again. He’s drawn up a ‘manual of our marriage’, which should help.

But as she learns more about her new self, chinks start to appear in the perfect life. All her old colleagues hate her. A rival is after her job. Then a dishevelled, sexy guy turns up. and lands a new bombshell.

What the **** happened to her? Will she ever remember? And what will happen if she does?

so anyone who have this novel please lend it to me.. hahaha


I've read all this novel even watched the movies.. and it really good.. i recommended should read them.. it wont feel the same if u just watch the movie.. unlike reading..

I'M FREE!!!!

no PRESENTATION!!! tapi nya jangan silap pagi tadi rushing buat slide untuk HEALTH PROMOTION...hahaha. frustrated and tired but it okey at least I've time to fixed some of them..

by the way this morning we had yoga time.. release our stress.. am i under stress? not exactly just moderate.. but most importantly i had fun with it.. all i can think is peaceful.. should try it sometime.. it help a lot..

My current new hair.. nice give comment if not nice just SHUT UP!!!

huhuhuuh... i just curl my hair and it totally 'UGLY' I think.. wanted to cried after i done with last blow.. i want to straight my hair but needed to wait for another couple of weeks.. hate to see my current look.. paloi! i just paid $30 for it sasak ku banar! even now!!!!!!!


bdw today semua presentation done very well thank you to umairah.. she the one who do the slide..

bah!ok lah kan balik kb ku ne.. my boyfriend tunggu di lur sudah.heheheh

on Monday night i missed heard 1 of westlife song 'fool again' and guess what? i started to miss all of their songs.. now I'm at lobby try to download some of their song and i finally got them.. hahaha funny me right.. but who care. i love them as long as i don't disturb someone life right?

okey! as usual today start of class after semester break.. tired? no!not at all.. fun? ummm sort of.. BUT during health promotion class that was really fucking bored.. felt like want to escape the class but what to do I'm to good girl *yuck!*

moreover, can you imagine we in the class is 36 (cause of our group go for clinical) and her voice.. ooooohhhh!my god very very tiny and soft.. kind of whispering with us. and expect us to concentrate during her lesson. gasps! i almost fall a sleep but with a mean of respect so just stay a wake..

sweet you

vain me..

me or sayang yang kan bali barang ne??? hahaha

me vs gulali..cuba sapa lawa???

sayang tengah pilih2 candy..

me and my baby love

okey last night my hubby sent me home to hostel.. before that we dropped at hua ho superstore( not sure the spelling) to buy my stuff.. hehehe..

i wake up early morning with sunlight dazzling my eyelids..

i turn over and bury my throbbing head in the pillow, trying to sink into sleep again for a couple of minute.which normally i would find very easy.but today, something niggling at me.. but what??

i'm still HURT.. really hate this feeling.. it been past few days already but still i can't forget them.why? WHY? why? what wrong with me???

should be i forget and let it go.. feel ridiculous!!! body is suddenly all shaky..
i think i realized for the first time quite how deeply i feel about YOU.

DO MISSED MY SAYANG SO MUCH NOW!!

elaun keluar udah but still i DON'T get a chance to withdraw cash.. one of the main reason i'm lazzyyy bum.. to tired to drive from LUMUT to KB.. uuhuk!! see lah tomorrow or on monday.. oh ya! sadly elaun keluar sebulan? huh? what the hack!! kemana tia sebulan lagi elaun kami? humph! bagi mental saja tahun ne.. stresss ku......

it been three days had past.. but still all the words that she spoke to me play repeatedly in my mind.. try to forget it.but i failed to do so.. All at once i feel close to tears.it really hurt me so badly. I suddenly blurt out.unable to stop myself.i kept on wondering why me? what i done wrong toward you.. come 'ON' be mature you're not kid anymore what past just let it go.. I'm sick and tired being treated like this in fact I've try my best for the sake of my relationship with your brother. 5 year wasn't a very short time. furthermore there is a lot lot of stuff me and your brother been thru together.. please100x i'm begging you accept and respect me as your brother gf.. i don't ask for more only that. is that the hardest thing to be done? hell no!

one more thing never question me how much i love your brother it only between me and your brother and i never play with your brother heart.you don't have any right to ask that type of question and don't judge me just the way i do.. stop disturbing me and my life. uhhugh! FOR GOD SAKE PLLLLEEASEEEE.....! do help.cause sayang jua belajar tinggi tapi inda jua faham bahasa or finally READ MY WORDS!!!!! DON'T MAKE ME DO SOMETHING THAT YOU TOTALLY NOT GONNA EXPECT ME TO DO.that you need to remember all the time cause i'm fed up to repeat those words.. Always like that whenever you have problem with your brother ( recently YOU create it) i'm the one and only place you easily mad and attack. cause you know i'm your brother only2 weakness.. KENAPA KAN ADA MANUSIA YANG SEKEJAM KO NE? tried to change yourself. now i'm just your bro gf soon if i be one of your family member,are you gonna do the same thing to me????
hell noooo!

thank hubby for understand me.. you knew me better than her.. do love you so much. you the reason why i still here.. you know i can't do this without you.. even now i'm fucking HURT.. and here you are stand just beside me.. i really hope your sister will change her feeling toward me.. cause i can't stand with this. she totally get into my nerve.. i've try my best to ignore this feeling. tapi ia makin menguji kesabaran me..
I'm unaware of anything around us.the world has narrowed to me and my mouth spewing out all my innermost thoughts and hurt.. I barely know what i'm saying anymore.all i know is, it feels good.
Is this what therapy is like??