If Only

"EVERYDAY IS A GIFT THAT WHY IT CALLED PRESENT"

i love this quote so much. i don't know why but it give a lot lot of meaning

which not all people can understand it..

it start went i was attached in ward 22.. seeing alot of stuff especially who fight for their life..

they spend every single of their moment very wisely

i started to love myself,my family,my love and all people around me..

i had this one patient who suffered leukemia

he's one year younger than me..

he struggle enough to fight for his disease in order to live..

go on for chemotherapy, lumber puncture, everyday platelet transfusion

he totally brave man, not all people had that sort of courage..

and from him i learnt to appreciate my every moment and

even my health.

i not i'm afraid to die but at least i've done with all my reponsibilities before i go

it will feel so much better.i think..

i become the new me. i even say i love you not even to my love one but to my sibling and my friends too

cause i don't know how much time do i've.

so before too late i want everyone know that i damn love them so much

not only that i even learn to accept all the good and bad with open heart

there must be a reason behind it.. i do believed in it.

i admit sometime it easier say than do it..

like me, it take an age to accept something that totally insane

but no other option like it or not accept it

it "jai ho" or destiny..haha

i feel something on my eye like i become heavier.. and more..

haha.. my pillow is calling me.need to go to bed..
haha.. i just don't understand why I'm being sentimental this lately.. like i prefer to had something sweet and slow.. just so not me.. haha.. actually that not the real case the thing is i don't know what to post and i try not to leave my blog more than 2 weeks without update anything.but the post above is so-true me..hahaha..i miss my hubby.

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