Appreciate Every Moment Given

didie advance birthday

2010-03-28T22:53:00.005+08:00

on Saturday 27th march 2010. we celebrated didie advance birthday. luckily our plan success. we manage to drag her lunch with us.sal in first place ia nda mahu. puas jua lah kami memujuk at last mahu jua ia. yes! lunch at excapade. kami pakai 3 buah kereta bell and june sama aku. kami bali kek. yang lain nani, didie (birthday girl) and erza ikut c teah. c mar biasa lah sendiri.sal ia ambil sister nya. so we meet up arh check point di excapade. not to forget c wan bf nani pun join us. thank!! berulah jua lah bf nya tu. but siuk he made us as one of his friend.so that day we spent our time and more worst skip class. yes!!! gara2 atu lah.. hahaha

drg c june ne pndai lah cover. sampai c didie nda sadang yang kami kan suprise kan ia but thank to god it really work.. actually esuk (29th march 2010) ia birthday but since kami clinical di kb nda jua dapat jumpa so advance saja lah.. really fun lah. plus lama nda jumpa drg rindu sangat. and unfortunately c gadok and daus nda join kami. and c bell pun for the first time. thank you. so here the picture i took. sorry nda clear. pakai handphone.

i love you all so much!!! god bless our friendship

2010-03-24T10:36:00.000+08:00

ONE of those days

2010-03-24T10:14:00.002+08:00

ummm... today 24th march 2010, saya shift ptg.and mcm biasa lah mata ne meragam. time shift pagi banar2 ia mahu tutup ne udah kena bagi shift ptg, GILA BAIE tia!!!!!! sasak ku banar tah.

bdw last saturday, 20th march DONE with TEST. WAHHHHH!!! satu beban sudah ilang.TEST is over and also LAWÐIC. now left with research and up coming FINAL SEMESTER EXAM.

yesterday,23rd march im officially sudah b'inject H1N1.and yes!!! sakit panat jua rasa nya. as kena mention we have to. like it or not it a must!! then pa lagi gara2 malas jua kan kerja complot with my beautiful lady( erza n lina) minta MC. we did it! plus2 ALLOWANCE KELUAR LAGI... fuh! what a day.

and at night, all of sudden someone called me.and guess who??? my EX-LOVE.unexpected jua banar.entah lah why on earth he looking for me. i mean it been 7 years.huh!caya or inda long time dah aku nda terliat ia. just 1 time that was couple year ago. inda lah pernah ku ada rasa kan mencari ia ntah lah. what past is past. I've throw and erase him from my mind.. and now he keep on texting and calling me. annoyed lah ku banar. i dunno who the hell giving my no to him. the thing is aku INDA SUKA!!!

ok lah saya nak iron baju,mandi and makan around 1.15pnm turun lah. need to fetch my galpren ERZALINA.CHOW CINCAU!

saya kembali...

2010-03-13T20:14:00.002+08:00

ok this gonna be a short one.. saja kn blog. batah jua lah nda b'update mum dalam almari memang berhabuk udah blog ku ne..

im busy and really busy this lately.. too much things need to be done. next week i start attachment at KB hospital for 6 weeks. yes! for 6 six and im so not looking forward it..

flash back all stuff that u guy missed past few week ago. ok! im busy prepared for my debate with the motion " patient should be allowed to witness resuscitation " and and our group strongly agree with the motion. the good thing is we win and our group come up in the 1st place.hehe *happy mode* and next my research. and so far did it well and i'm satisfy with it.

and and and now i'm done with my part doing law and ethic assignment with the topic " should people allowed to sell kidney" this assignment need to be submit next week 20th march 2010. and now i'm currently busy with clinical on 15th march and my mid-test on 20th march 2010.. arghhhhh.. stresssssss...

ok! now i'm officially moving out from gadong hostel and next semester will apply for UBD hostel. yup! we need to move out since this lately we gt some trouble regarding transport. as for me since clinical at kb so malas lah kan sibuk2 dlu..hehehe

ummm... pa g ah??? i'm lost biasa lah lama dh nda blogging..

day out!

2010-01-18T21:49:00.004+08:00

u.. where should i start??? today Monday and it not blue at all seriously it damn not.. we got no afternoon class so me and my galprens decided to sushi-ing since it been a long time we don't do it.. so right after class done we went to escapade gadong. ummm yummy!! finally my wishes GRANTED!!!! so done with sushi-ing teah sent me and lina to hostel gadong.. pa lagi balik lah.. hahaha i want to have some nap.that my plan but here it come.. my sister.. yes!! who accidentally ruin my plan.hahaha no lah pa lagi sesi luahan perasaan lah after she take her rest then she treat me dinner as well movie-ing..i looooveee being treat especially time kapih2 and kering ini.. tapi jangan silap masih mampu sushi-ing hahahha.

so here some of pictures with my galprens.

this my new hair.. hahha i loveee my long hair 1st time x ah.. kesian~

actually azmi ( erza loved) with us but balik awal cos ia kerja..

bdw here our new UBD shirt.. i just love it..

and one last news for today warden UNNISA, told one of my colleague that they will not kick us out from that hostel in fact they keep us till our graduate.nice one

2010-01-13T22:45:00.002+08:00

ok yesterday me and my bullshit watched movie ummm.... sherlock holmes and yes!nice movie it totally play with ur mind i give 9/10.those who haven't watch it.better do!
and and before that we have our dinner at mall food court since the movie start at 7.15pm... we done around 9-ish,then shopping for stationary. and i got my planner for 2010. yes! i been looking for then like crazy. looking for it at seria bismi unfortunately it sold out. the left one of cos the 1 that i don't like to be exactly everyone don't like..hahahhah..

umm.. i got my timeable it seem like this 4th semester very pack with worksheet, assignment and finally CLINICAL.. OH!!!!NO. and and today class just ok except i didn't prepare anything for Tcher.Zainatul worksheet. NOPE!!!! it not i'm a lazy bum but i forgot about it.. tomorrow ( 14th jan 10) we discuss about FRACTURE and i totally prepare for it..hahahha..ok! im done

oooohhhh!before i start today i officially wore our intake sport shirt.i like it damn much!!!more nicer than previous

hotel i love the most..

2010-01-11T20:59:00.004+08:00
i just want to post those picture below.. cos i loooove the environment.. this hotel 2 thumb up!!! siuk sangat.. badly aku nda ambil gambar pool nya...

first for 2010

2010-01-11T20:02:00.004+08:00
Happy New Year 2010!
this year tak buat azam baru ngalih lah i still use the old one since 65% of it haven't filfull..

Guess it not to late to greet right? i have a blast holiday.. i spent my holiday at Kuching for 8days.. it was awesome.hehehee... picture? will upload them soon. back from Kuching i just stay at home spending my time watching tv,eat and meet my love.it routine and guess what? i gain weight!!!!!!!oh!tidak..blame my sis for it.. hari2 mcm2 saja d buat nya.. and i eat non-stop. And toward the end of holiday i went to JB but just for couple day due to something so pksa balik awal.. suppose we celebrate new year sana.. but what to do..
pa lagi ah?? blank ku.since holiday I'm not using my brain that much.. and banyak kan di update but saya lupa so till here

ok today start college.. welcome back!! hahaha.. oh no! i wish this holiday could be extend for another couple week.. i'm not ready for new core,assignment and group work seriously i don't prepare for those stuff..and.. we have new tutor.ummm..comment? I've no idea but one word for him sarcastic
well not much happen today. ok til here.. aku bosan!!!! nada tahu pa kan buat but for real i miss my home,my family,sibling and my bed!!!! arghhhhh!

2009-12-06T01:03:00.002+08:00

tick tock tick tock... yeah it 12midnight!!! my love birthday coming 26th.guess where I'm this time??? no idea?? nah it ok!let it be secret. but the fact is he's on my side.. baby,i love you!i just don't how to live without you after what we been thru together.. may god bless you and our relationship. may this age give a lot of good thing and you success in you life and career..

kuching oh kuching

2009-11-30T15:01:00.005+08:00

kuching!!!! kuching!!! is calling me now!! my body here in Brunei but my heart is there already.. hahaha... ok! this time vacation would be abit adventure.. sal nya i'm going with my friend plus convoy 5 cars.. imagine???? meriah jua tu.. that why i decide to join.. i don't want to miss the enjoyment.. can't wait.. we will stay there just for a week.. that would be enough i think..now i'm waiting for my allowance..urrgh!! and my love will join i think.. if yes!!so ia bawa kereta lah..

my hair

2009-11-30T14:51:00.002+08:00

i colour my hair!!!! and i love it.. thank you to my sister,she treat me.hahaha.. sal apa nah? ia treatment rambut nya+straightening so i have to wait 2 hour. yes!sakit jubur menunggu.. complaint lah aku ne.. kan balik lah..apa lah..as you know me.bukan nda ikhlas m'dengan kan.tapi nya bosan.maybe sasak ia m'dengar aku mengomel saja2.so ia offer aku usai rambut but not above $100.so i choose to colour my hair.. 1st kan highlight but then urg saloon tu cakap nda lama.. if mahu colour my hair smua then bru tah highlight which cost $120.. so nda jadi aku colour lah saja.. ummm.. if duitku sendiri karit plang ku.since urg treat lantak saja lah.. $70 saja colour+treatment.the colour not to light and not to dark.. just medium.. if too light memang lari dari my skin tone.. this coming allowance im gona highlight my hair.. if nada halangan...

72 month

2009-11-26T09:05:00.001+08:00
Yes!it 72 month i dating wf fabian.. I just love him.. Too drown in love wf him.. Urggh..this lately our relation wasn't that stable.me fight,yelling to much and my teardrop almost dry.. Call me idiot or whatever!but i'm not give up.. I need to pull down my ego.. Yup!at first i need space and plan to walk away.but then when i think it back.it worthless after so much thing we been thru' how can i just easily let them finish..without fighting for what is mine.. 10 minute to 12midnight he came to my place for apologize..plus it was our day..i tot he don't bother about it or maybe give up wf me,since i still in mad mood.. But here he's still stand next to me and waiting for miracle that i could forgive him.. And he kept on explaining me what happen.. Til i kiss him and make him stop... And now im in cloud 9..overwhelm happy..we spent our night at the lumut beach and flash back our precious memories..
He regret and promise me not to do the same mistake.and i hope he mean his words.

Til we meet again.. My pillow is callin..im sleepy right nw. I just got back at 6ish am..

I need full time rest.. Pay back all my sleepless night and restless time.especialy my brain.work to much this few week!!

what i want..

2009-11-16T15:50:00.003+08:00
im not good in expressing love to him.. i not even good in doing poetry just to show how much i want him either to pick one song and let him listen to it just to let him know how much i got hurt by him.. yes!i admit I'm not good in those stuff..

like i'm trying to write poetry for him to read and understand me,and guess what?
"POETRY FAIL" hahhahha.. but seriously i want it so much.. my own not copy and paste from other..

I mean, when you tell someone who is important to you that you love him, does I love you really sum up what you feel? Do you want to say, I love you, or do you want to say, I love you the way water loves oxygen– you are part of me; I am not myself without you? If you add a metaphor to it, doesn’t that I love you get a little closer to the kind of feeling you truly have? Maybe it’s not perfect, but at least better..

Poets try to put into words human emotions and experiences that do not fit into words. Seriously. That’s what poetry is about. Maybe it seems like a fool’s errand to try to put into language precisely the things that language can’t hold, but unless there is some other way to talk about those emotions and experiences that I somehow missed

but i wishes someday i could make one best poetry for him to read.it all about how we fall to one another.how we meet and how we go through thick and thin of our love journey together..

and if it success,he loved and understand it.therefore my feverish typing and thinking is worth it.And that feels pretty amazing.

but if still i fail to do it.i'll carry on searching in internet and copy paste...hahhah

2009-11-16T15:34:00.002+08:00

I thought I knew the color of roses
until I saw the side of your face.
And now I know that beauty resides in our hearts.

And your touch could sustain me forever.
Your little laugh and bony knees break my heart.

Maybe I can someday love you.
Maybe you could someday understand me.
Maybe you will stop breaking my heart.
Maybe you will just reach for me.

Maybe.

lonely

2009-11-16T14:49:00.003+08:00
wasn't in mood at all.. all i can think is HIM.
Damn miss him.. he been away to KK since last Saturday and will be back either today or tomorrow Tuesday.. well he want me to come along but then i refuse to, since my exam so soon.. need to study.. no!!! i don't want to be a failure.. plus2x i wan thim to have his time with his friend.. umm..baik x ah gf nya ne.. hahaha.. i trust him all the way. tapi jangan silap before ia jalan i warned him.

"if u want clubbing u may go for it,if u want drink u may drink but big NO for GIRL!"

and what?he laugh.. and said

"I'm not going there to look for the new one. having u in life is much2x enough. if i want it why would i've to wait until 6th year?"

feel a bit better after that. well it not for the first time he left me.but for this year.yes!it is for the first..

hahaha and it make me remember how i cried for him.time ia ke Dubai last year for job training and leave me for 3 month,gosh!! that damn hurt.hahaha for 2 week wh memendam air mata.. cinta th banar.for more it for the 1st time we both separate that long. yup!everyday wh berwebcam ne.. till i need to wake up in the middle of the night dah esuk nya ngantuk but it does matter.it the ONLY way to get in touch with him.. and during weekend i spent the whole night webcam, call and text. haha esuk nya mcm mata panda..i'm not sure how much i spent on my recharge.. this the longest time we separated. kan gila jua lah ulih nya..hahah.. before this he only leave me just for couple weeks or paling sekajap 3 hari..

i really hope ia balik today.. if today balik nda tah ku datang college esuk..
hahha..jk!

out with galprens

2009-11-11T22:13:00.002+08:00
hello!people on earth.. ok tadi me liat movie with my galpren.. ceta phobia.. umm.. ok lah ceta nya wasn't that bad..out of 10 i give 8.5 point.like it very scary in the beginning and toward the end cali lah.ok nda rugi $4.hahaha... after that we have our dinner at food court mall.and lapas makan ke arcade biasa lah karaoke. yes!release tension.. sorry i dont take any pic of us. nanti lah aku minta arh june and will post them here..after that we shop makanan dpr and finally balik..

ok! a few more week to go to exam..on 24th november 09.semoga di permudahan kan lah exam nya ane. rasa dup..dap.. jantung ku ne..

ok lah i think that all.just want to drop by saja.. night people! tomorrow balik ke kb with erzalina yakub..hahaha sorry za..

even a smile is also a charity

2009-11-10T18:32:00.006+08:00
ok!aku boring sangat2 ne.. fb nda dapat and youtube apa lagi!sasak to the max lah ku ne.. hahhaha..

bdw on sunday,8th noovember 09, my institute ada mengadakan charity utk mangsa bencana alam for indonesia and philipine.. and aku ada lah join tapi akhir lah datang dalam 11ish am.sal nya aku dari lumut. yup!need to go back on that Saturday sal nya ada family meeting regarding my sister function this coming January. sal apa nah?tunggu sja lah if confirm i will announce it here. yang penting happy news lah.ok back to those charity story..

actually nya me and other galprens kana a sign arh car wash but then last minute cancel. kana suruh senior kami yg buat for more it not suitable for girl..hahaha.. so pa nah kmi buat rooming around the building looking for the stuff yg kana jual.. hahaha nda rugi ne bawa June,Erza and Lina jalan charity. they spent a lot especially June.. me biasa lah i always spent my $$$ arh food. ya th badan pun makin bahagia.but who care!kami chow dari IM around 3ish pm. no!we not stop there.. apa lagi go for swimming lah with daus..kan fresh kan badan lh konon nya.yes!we smell like salted fish.bagas main bouncer!kami plng mcm kanak2 ne.kesian~

ok sampai di stadium ujan tia.kesian lah usul kami tat time sal nya baru kan mandi ujan makin labat tia + thunderstorm.c daus and june ok lah sampat terajun mandi. me and gadok ahhaha.. separuh saja wah basah.. but at least daripada c erza langsung nda basah ne wah..lina and nani paid $2 just to watch us. rasa jua kami nda mau rugi $2 apa lagi kami tunggu lah sampai ujan teduh. sambil2 tunggu ujan teduh kami liat2 urg and biasa lah mengumpat.hahaha around 4ish kan dakat kul 5 lah teduh th ujan apa lagi c june membuka rasmi terajun lah tarus. after abis mandi semua kelaparan ne.. so fikir punya fikir at last makan kami d aminah arif sengkurong tapi c daus nda join kami sal nya ia ada family dinner..by that time ujan punya lah lebat.. so paksa lah kami slow down..

sampai di aminah arif drg c june order makanan brunei biasa lah AMB----.me,lina and gadok order soto. makanan drg erza sampai dah.. xcept us.. last minute di saat2 perut ane melolong minta isi ada tia pelayan ne datang bagi tahu soto habis.. Shit! mcm kami batah2 nunggu baru th ia gtau nada. mineral water pun nada jua drg wh! kami minta lh nasi katok.haram! nasi katok pun nada ne wh.. apa lagi c june hot lah. di tanya nya "apa th ada di restaurant kamu ne?" last2 kmi kongsi lah makanan sama drg c erza.. kesian lah kami ne.. mcm2 halangan.. so after that kami antar june balik and next kami and finally drg c erza.. yes! it feel good to be home.. balik tarus mengampai lah.atu pun nda berapa nyaman jua tidur sal nya sakit wh badan..

shit system!

2009-11-10T18:11:00.002+08:00
ok saya mental sangat2 time ne...apa nah?i just don't understand kenapa th urg admin UNNISA tu block smua entertainment di internet ne? like aku nda dapat fb-ing,download video arh youtube,even my friend nda dpt buka friendster jua...yang paling sandi apa nah google kan download image pun nda dpt.fcuk off! i need to do my slide for tomorrow.but here i'm having trouble with this stupid2 system!!! banar th nda drg merasa x tinggal di hostel without entertainment nda kn drg expect us to read book all the time. like every minute..yang penting this is a real big huge shit!1

urgh!!! marah banar th ku udah ne.. OK lah im done before aku menyumpah getting worst better off. roger and out!

2009-11-09T12:42:00.000+08:00

UNCLE KRACKER - Smile lyrics

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile

i fall in love with this song.. yes! it give me a million of untold feeling ..
love i know you read my blog.. and i dedicate this song to you..
im running out of words when every time u next to me..and my heart stop beating a little while.. my brain doesn't work properly and all i could think is you and yes it YOU! since you came to my life past 6 year ago.. and thank to god here we are celebrating our anniversary for 6 year..

you mean so much to me.like there no one could love me better than you.. hhahahaha cinta th banar.. but i mean everything i say..

still remember how we met for the first time?? it still fresh in my memory. how u propose me.. like we spent the whole night till morning messaging and sharp 6.45am i accepted your propose and you shouted on the phone and immediately called me "sayang" i missed that moment..but i never want to turn back the time because what we have now was the best give! and i never want o let it go after so much things we been through together from pain, sad, disagree, and happiness.. it all pay now!i have prove it.that our love is not a primary or secondary love that people use to say..

yup!family use to said that having bf will ruin you life and career but here we are work hard not to disappointing my family and finally my family accepted you to be apart of me. and im happy for that.. thank love u have support me all the way.. and our love has pay all the bills...

once again thank love for always being there whenever im in trouble, for support me when i almost fall, give me strength to go on and fight all the obstacle. it not i could live without u.instead i just couldn't bear be without you when the time im with you..

lina bday celebration

2009-11-03T16:49:00.000+08:00

happy bday to my roomate

LINA SYAZANA

may god bless u all ur wishes be granted.

corresponding to that kami satu geng plan to surprise ia.but sadly most of them unable to make it.so left me,erza,june and mar yg masih on to the plan. in additional c farid and azmi lh join meriah kan suasana.hahaha.. but we did have fun tho' lina expect da kami kan surprise kan ia.mum dah erza and mar banyak tersasuh cakap plus she is one of the surprise bday planner.moreover c ERZA!!! hahaha ia nda dapat wh pretending mcm nda pa2.. oh!bdw kami celebrate her bday arh excapade gadong. i booked room that night.since it her favourite place.. lina kami SANGGUP demi utk kawan.. hahaha.. overall ok lah. thank to excapade worker.sal help complot jua..

so thank jua yg lain..one for being in time! erza and mar for the cake. love u guys!

lina syazana the birthday ladie..

2009-11-03T16:29:00.000+08:00
ok!on saturday. UBD graduation day so we 23rd intake kena granted holiday!!congratulation to those yg graduate.hahah batah nunggu aku punya.. 2011 baru th abis. S.a.b.a.r. when time is come it will be my day. aku mahu rasa pa rasa nya graduate ne. I'm in the cloud 9..

ok. saya happy lah ter-sangat2. kana bagi panjang cuti tu..haha nda baik lagi usul ku ane.sudah cuti panjang krg mau kan skulah.tapi bila skulah krg mau kan cuti sampai di tunggu ne wh urg gtau nda class. lapas atu.huh!packing tarus zoom balik hostel eh.. ya th manusia ne.

bdw since saturday nda ku skulah so aku kena suruh antar drg my little sister skulah.. huh! stress.. adik ku nda mahu2 aku yg antar..ahahha.. baru jua kena suruh sudah th ku ngusut.ya th nada tu.. kurang point.

so after balik antar my sister skulah. me,maylisa and mummy jalan2 lah ke tutong saya belanja.. sekali segala. we plan kan bbq mlm nya..so buy stuff utk bbq mlm lah.. around 11ish am kami balik sal pksa fetch my little sister..

on sunday full-time rest! terkarang.. around 2ish paksa ke tutong arh cousin,ada function makan2 so pagi skjp then around 5ish balik.continue lagi jumpa my cinta. i miss him damn much!! rindu teramat2 lah sngt.hahaha ober jua ku ne. who care.nda mahu baca. u may GET OUT FROM MY PAGE!!!!

excapade time!!

2009-11-03T15:55:00.000+08:00
ok.last thursday me and the geng dinner di ecapade.. yes!everyone craving for sushi-ing
since semua agree so c teah biasa lah booked place, semua full except di q-lap.atu pun outside sit.so nda pa lah.. asal dpt makan..

here some of the pictures:

yes!we enjoy our time together.i really hope this relationship last forever. aku sayang semua kawan2 ku.. if ada masalah or something yg hurt kamu do tell the truth. from this tani bulih strength kan lagi relationship tani. learn from the mistake. and i don't want to walk away with my stupidity. pull down ego masing2. ummm...nda payah ku cakap panjang.cukup lah kamu tahu. i always need u all in whatever situation I'm in.. sama ada dlm keaadaan sedih or happy. love you guys!!!

my new look!lol.

2009-10-25T18:24:00.000+08:00

sori jangan jeles...i just love my hair. i mean it.... my boyfriend boring dah liat aku curl so i decide to make it straight.. and yadadada... i love the result.aku usai ari jumaat well terror lah aku ne, suppose aku study for my exam ne nda sibuk2 plang kan berlawa.. my love ketawa sal aku bawa my note ke SALOON.. but who care. sayang jua masa tu..on saturday my NNH3 test.. i have to study six topic. asthma,deep vein thrombosis,rheumatoid arthritis, lung cancer, intestinal obstruction and colon cancer.... bayang kan? *lu fikir lah sendiri umm..stress lah sikit sal we need to remember ia punya medication, treatment, process of nurses care and yada... hahah tahu stress but always take thing for granted..

aku di hostel time ne... awal balik like aroung 5ish sal tadi pagi my sister bawa shopping ke bandar. and survey2 stuff utk ku kawin.. Oops!tersasur..i mean bali barang rumah.and then we had lunch together..i miss this moment. since i stay in bandar rarely dapat together with them even with my parent di lamunin..

boring punya pasal...

2009-10-20T14:34:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to dina

2009-10-20T14:26:00.000+08:00

on saturday we celebrate my little sister birthday coming 6th. actually it on 13th october but i'm not around that time so postpone to saturday.and yes! i treat.. just a simple one.family2 je! my love was there too.. jadi tukang bbq.

happy bithday to my beloved little sister DINA may god bless you and jgn gauk2!

p/s; sorry i dont take any pic..sal aku malas ahahhaa...

cincai lah

2009-10-20T14:03:00.000+08:00
my clinical report

ok last thursday, 15th october 09. officially my last day working!!! yepppy!!! i'm overwhelm happy.no more wake up early, no more afternoon shift and no more leg pain due to standing for long period of time.i just don't know why suddenly aku malas sangat2 kan clinical. ya!before this iski menunggu time clinical but now so not looking forward. but like it or not that what i will be at the end of my course.

bdw i got a very good feedback from the sister at ward 19.but then yg spoil nya the last message. because of my absence on Wednesday and failed to inform staff in charge.it ok i take it positively. hahaha sudah atu. overall i enjoyed my time in ward 19...

ok done with my clinical.and now i need to finish up my research which the due date is on saturday 17th october 09. gosh!!this assignment really kill me in softly.. i have no idea how to do it. last minute on Friday EARLY morning i do it and around late AFTRENOON i'm done!! compile and printing.which make me so happy.

somewhere 2ishpm erza text me.. and yes!!! our allowance is OUT.for the 2nd time for this month.$570..it alot for me.therefore double happy!!hahaha

kasut baru

2009-10-07T18:44:00.000+08:00

i'm so in love with this "kasut".. i just can't held it.. so i bought it murah je $36.90 hahahhaa well simple je pattern nya but doesn't matter.. i just love it.

suprise again

2009-10-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

.............gadok@ nuraisyah birthday girl.............

on Tuesday, 6th october 09, gadok @ nur aisyah ( if salah spelling sorry) 22nd birthday. so we (me,lina,june,farid,erza,teah and didie)do surprise birthday for her.. guess? di mana nah?? arh basement mall right after kami dinner.. june, farid and lina balik awal sal kan ke PM ler konon nya.. after few minute kami turun ler menyusul.. punya ler lama c farid tunggu kami arh entrance basement.. sal apa nah? c didie macam nda tahu plan jua.. di bawa nya ler gadok ne jalan2 arh utama grand sampai lah lina datang minta kunci kerta teah..

geng... geng.... happy birthday to u lalalala blaallala..

hahaha malu + cali jua lah c gadok yang menahan rasa kan ke jamban pun nda jadi sal kekajutan..

after few minute datang tia c june dengan kek menyanyi dari jauh ler.. i just laugh sal meliat gadok kekajutan lagi.me relex saja balas text my love then c june dakat aku and say my name.. memang ku terkajut.. coz my birthday 1 month plus dh over.. hahaha but what ever it is really appreciate it. actually i don't mind pun as long drg inda lupa my birthday... *sob sob terharu ler sangat2..

right after that kami pun naik ke arcade apa lg karaoke ler.. really enjoy that night

bdw tq june for the photo clip, lina for the earring and erza for the watch.. not to for..get my love..

jeng...jeng...jeng... my present

menyamak jeeee!!!

2009-10-04T19:52:00.000+08:00
anth kenapa ler malam ne aku terasa sensitive sangat2. wanted to let go all my innermost but this wasn't a perfect place to share.. want to shout and cry. so helpless!! to call my love and share this feeling scared that he'll worry and he definitely will come here ( hostel gadong)

uuuuurrghhhh!!!!!!sitness..paloi-ness..

stress!!! stress!!! how i wish people could understand this feeling without i explain. thing would be easier..

bdw i just with done my Transcultural nursing assignment. hate to do last minute job but still i malas to do it if kana bagi masa banyak.

I always said.. "suk saja buat"

and now sapa yg sasak and stress. sendiri punya gila.

and now left research assignment which due this

17th october 09.

kill me if i do this assignment last minute..

ok ler!!! sasak udah ku nee..nda tahu apa kan di buat. saja kan menyamak kan blog.

it the fact!

2009-10-01T08:51:00.000+08:00

i was browse something in internet and crossed with this quote and kinda like it.i shown this to my friends..they laugh and first expression "that sarcastic!" yup!! such a mean Quote. but really motivate if we took it in positive way.i think. because it base on the real life

i'm NOT

2009-10-01T01:35:00.000+08:00
I'm not going to quote poetry just for you to understand me.
I'm not going to be thinking about you every moment
but I'll give you a part me that i know you can break.
don't hurt and change me being who I'm.
because I'm try so hard to be someone you can Love
stop expect something more than i can give..

i love you so much. my happiness is when i see you smile.

i'm back

2009-10-01T01:11:00.000+08:00
------------------------- I'M HAPPY---------------------

today last day of my exam. FREEDOM!!! MERDEKAR!!!

OMG!! I Miss blog again. i don't know all of sudden i want to blogger.. ok!!I'm done with my exam and now busy with TON of assignment which due on 3rd, 5th and 17th October but here I'm still taking my sweet time doing all wasted stuff such fb, games and hanging..i haven't start any yet not even single word. can somebody kill me please!! next week start clinical again but this time just for couple week.. * smiling face

ok!last week we had semester break which ONLY for week!!! BORING!!! yes! boring sangat2. i wish i could extend them.but what power do i have???? * thinking

baby!!

2009-09-04T16:49:00.001+08:00

yes!!!!3 september 2009 @ 9.32pm.my best friend selamat melahir kan baby girl with weight 2.9kg!!! CUTEEEEE sangat2. semua wh kami happpyyyy!!!mcm ia yg deliver kami ia iski ne.tapi banar.cute banar2.this is the moment we been waiting and officially jadi aunty!!

congrates to both of you!! may this newcomer give more and more happiness to both of u. love you both!

my happy day!!!

2009-09-04T16:03:00.000+08:00

28 august 2009

i'm officially 21st.yeah!!!! kunci kebebasan..hahaha

thank to god for i still here.

and all my friends,my family and my cousins thank you so much for the greet

and to my love.thank for you time.i'm happy for it.
may all my wishes be granted and success in life and love.

just drop by

2009-09-03T03:18:00.001+08:00
helooooo!!!!! be back soon

REMIX story

2009-08-02T20:10:00.000+08:00
heloooooo!!!! damn i really do miss blogging.I'm off from blogging for about couple weeks. huh!! too many reasons why? but the major one i got high fever with 39.6c hell!! it really killed me in softly.given MC for 5days.i just stayed on my bed and slept all a day. if aku terbangun pn nda sampai half hour confirm tidur balik.. plus i'm to weak and uncomfortable due to hot temperature. well dalam 4 hari tu my fever inda mau turun2.until one day tu my day bli ice cube and ia suruh aku berandam arh drum with the ice.. memang ku kesajukkan sangat2 but thank to god it really help.my temperature drop to 37.6c leastwise.hahaha..

then on Thursday itu saya kena called and the news which i just heard really broken my heart into pieces.unexpected.but slowly i i try to accept the fact. due to that i'm given another MC for 5 days. hish3x panjang nya cuti. if on vacation tantu plng tu but ne nda MC untuk QUARANTINE!!!!! but now I'M FINE!!! 100% RECOVERED.

NEXT.....

ON 31TH JULY
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my elder sister birthday coming 23rd... and yes we celebrated it.together we plan it with her boyfriend.and it really work.memang ia nda sangkak and she cried.picture? well it all save in camera.malas saya mau upload.nanti2 aku save arh FB.

AND..... here i'm at hostel lobby.fuh!!alot2 of stuff been happened since i'm gone for couple week.hahha.well hostel sudah diduduki oleh org2 unissa.and guess what??? we have to follow their rule which wear TUDUNG whenever keluar bilik.more even worst.keluar ke brandan pun sama. WTF!!! I know it not a really big issues. tapi nya still saya tak puas hati.

FINALLY...

today 2nd if august!!!
yeah!!!it august i'm counting on my special day!!!

I'M COMING 21ST SOON.. TAKE NOTE EVERYBODY!!!!! BETTER READY2 MY PRESENT!!!

my beloved family..

2009-07-15T21:34:00.000+08:00
ari ini saya boring sangat2.. i don't know what to post tapi nya hati ku ne majal jua kn blogging.hahahaha apa kan erti nya tu.. saya jugak engak faham deh... tapi yang penting aku rindu sangat2 arh sayang ku.. eventho i just met him few hour ago. CINTA th banar.. but so what.saya punya suka lah.. kwang..kwang.. i miss my family jua 1 month sama den tiba2 menjauh tia.. only weekend sja jumpa.. the most saya rindu my two little sisters.. ia jua di rindu and dgn berkelahi..

enjoy the pictures..bulan reka-an semata2 tapi this my real family..

mr and mrs FABIAN

2009-07-14T20:26:00.000+08:00
love of my life.. i miss him so much right now!!! damn much.. oh ya last few week is our month-versary. may god bless this relationship.i love you so much!!!

to at UNI-campus

2009-07-14T19:53:00.001+08:00

jangan salah faham he's my friend.

the gf's

okey today fun..FUN..fun.. sangat2 ton of activity kami buat. in the morning kami review hand washing and dressing technique. while in the afternoon kami buat role play the best way use and remove glove and apron. sound so simple but then actually there's a technique in order to maintain sterility. so kami kana divide into 4 group.kami in group 1.. and guess what? group kami chosen to be the best.

Happy birthday to erzalina

2009-07-14T19:23:00.000+08:00
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ERZALINA YAKUB.

AKU MALAS KAN CETA SAL KO.tapi yang penting once you get to know her better she's the best friend.. caring, kambang, perlipur lara di kala duka, and sweet in her own way.. wish you all the best in ur study. kekal kan th identity mu.jangan berubah di sebabkan cakap urg.urg yg kuat bercakap sal kekurang tani tu urg nda bertamadun tu..

okey ani antara2 gambar2 mu yg THE BEST ku ada.. sengaja ku plang tu upload gambar2 ani.hahahaha..

okey actually birthday c erza on 14th july. but since ia ada program on 14th july so kami buat lah advance.. guess dimana nah kami suprise kan ia? di pasar malam.. caya?but that the fact.macam2 cara kami fikirkan so ia nda kedapatan.finally kami complot lah sama c azmi, her love. kai suruh bf nya bawa ia ke pasar malam so kami suprise kan ia the moment ia masuk kereta lapas bali makanan..heheh terkajut+gigiran wah ia but that was fun.after that kami pun plan kan celebrate so kami makan di kianggeh. june blanja satay and azmi lah belanja kami.. tq!walaupun nda special but it the ways kami ingat kan ia punya birtday.. lastly happy 19th birthday my dear friend.may god bless you and all ur wish will be granted. we love you.

ini birthday cake c erza.tapi nya hancur dah melting.

wajah2 ceria lina and jeerah

sweet june and her hubby.

sapa lagi kalau bukan c sheedah and her love

finally ane lah birthday girl nya..

mum 41st birthday

2009-07-13T17:51:00.000+08:00

on 3rd july my mum birthday coming 41st. our gift?? we share bought gold bracelet for her. happy birthday mummy we love u.so kami celebrated her day. my sis bli kan cake nice brabis.. tiramisu cake.and kami bbq.not a big celebration just one family plus my and sis love..

unfortunately aku nda ambil gambar that sweet moment. it ok lah..

first day of UNI- campus

2009-07-13T17:30:00.000+08:00
hy!!! welcome back to me..almost 1 month i off from blogging my time more with facebook.here i come back.miss me??? me?definitely YES!!! ok what happened during my holiday... AWESOME!!!i wish i could extend it for another 1 month.. sudah atu.... yup2!! aku start had fun with my holiday just in the middle of the month.. mybe sal mula2 tu nada apa2 plan x.. hehehe.. okey right i really missed my family and the most my SAYANG!!!!

today first day of my UNI-campus really tiring and fantastic what even worst early morning kami paksa exercise to SHIBE.huh!!!punya lah panas and i mcm mandi kn paluh.. plus lagi supposed class start by 9am but apa nah ckg dtg at 9.30am manis banar..

now kami officially 2ND YEAR. sweet sangat2.soon ada junior but then BORING.ON 26TH JULY which is on SUNDAY kami join the junior punya orientation week.. pissed off jua tu.ingat kami kan ragging junior..

ummmph..other information lagi 1st and 2nd week is theory week and on the 3rd week orientation week.. *SOB.. on the 4th week all group A clinical for 8 weeks we only break 1 week for OSCE EXAMINATION.. gila!!!!

ok off til here.saja kan me updated my friends banyak complain napa ku nda rajin update lagi. ERZA nah puas ati sdh?hahahaha

omg!!!! she start it again..

2009-06-28T10:33:00.001+08:00
I don’t know what is wrong with that girl. I tot everything is settle down. i was wrong she isn’t done with me. i won’t mind if we need to continue this war even longer. As long she doesn’t drag my family!!!! But no she drag my mum into this problem. Just imagine beautiful and educated woman give fuck to my mum. Is that appropriate???? This shouldn’t happen. She should think a bit before done something don’t just take thing for granted. Stupid and stupid. When i knew regard this tragedy. DAMN!!! I fucking hated this woman to the MAX!!!! I WONT FORGIVE HER EVEN TILL THE DEATH... NOT AT ALL. well actually depend on her..inda lah ku ne kejam sangat.
For all this time i just stay silent and remain respect but now i learnt from the mistake. NEVER RESPECT THOSE PEEPS THAT DON'T KNOW HOW TO RESPECT YOU. Waste of time. Yet! She even a DRAMA QUEEN act like nothing went wrong in front of other especially in front his hubby.. BULLSHIT!!! But i believed god is fair. I’m helpless .i hope she will get what she deserve to..
O god!!!! I damn hate this girl so much. My faith is shaking every time i saw her..Lost with no direction... i feel like want to attack her and give punch to her face...How i wish i could do it but i can’t. That so not professional action..

she is unpredictable.after this i don't know what game she'll play on. i think i had enough.and my patience is almost explode.. it waiting for the right time.. eeeehhhhh!!banar th no words can describe about my feeling toward her.. hate to the max!! even dictionary pun nada word yg sesuai untuk ia..ober ku ah..but whateverrrr

Gawai celebration at my place

2009-06-20T15:13:00.001+08:00
14th June 2009,Sunday.from 10am onward.at my place.daus, meeroll and ngian came somewhere 10+am but then drg mau nunggu drg c erza and jun jua.so arrived at my placed around 11+am.only few of my friends are invited since it a last minute program. but then i so glad those friends i invited managed to make it. tq so much.especially those yg tinggal di bandar. to erza and his love tq too for being here.even thought kamu dua sesat hahaha.. it was great. so by next year maybe aku bakal invite all my friends. ani trial saja..hahaha kan download pictures but then the connection kind of suck!!!! will download them some other time "IF" aku rajin lah.

hari2 ku yg boring

2009-06-17T19:18:00.000+08:00
okey it been a while didn't updated anything here..past couple weeks ago I'm busy with my exam and now I'm free, the battle is done. now i'm off from college and even clinical. FREE from anything!!!!!! yeppppy!today 4th post of holiday. honestly it really suck and over bored!!! i got nothing to do. i wake up at 9-ish am, after took my bath cook something for breakfast, watch tv and sleep.. argggh! boring sangat2. so need to figure out something to do if gila th ku ne banar.. SEBULAN x ah cuti..

D.o.n.e

2009-05-29T09:44:00.000+08:00
Just a short one.i don't know how to express how happy i'm.Finally..we had a good conversation.i so glad it finally solve.it all because of 3rd person.hope no 2nd time for it..enough is enough.. May our friendship long lasting.I love you all and to my current friends in MJ too..i love you all

the fact of life.

2009-05-28T14:30:00.000+08:00

something disturbing my mind... my mood wasn't that good this few days
there's certain time i happy but when I'm all alone i started thinking something negative
not suicide.. oooohhhh!!pleeease i still love my self.
this couple month something went wrong.things turn up-side-down
it hard to figure out cause me,myself still blur with it.
yes! i read one of my friend blog and was fcuking true. the fact of life.i can't deny it and even blame anyone for that.infact i'm so glad and awake.cause it mean to be broken. before we're close friend but now se-pa-ra-te
because of what? me either don't understand why those thing happened.
maybe we're not perfect and not suit to be together.
i want this friendship long lasting.
it okey if she wanted to moved on and create something great in her life.no one can stop her
but i really hope what ever happened in our friendship please keep it to yourself
either all the happiness and the bad time..
i always said when we stick together all a piece of us it will make us perfect.
now all gone blew by the wind..nothing left behind. VANISH with the time
will continue... i'm speechless now..

Kris Allen - No boundaries

2009-05-27T14:59:00.000+08:00

KRIS ALLEN
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away

Coz hear I am - still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries x2

I fought to the end to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets
Don’t know where the future’s headed
Nothings gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge and I’ve run every line
I’ve risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why

So hear I am still holding on
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
Yeah…

There are no boundaries
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
There are no boundaries x3

i kind of like this song as well as the lyrics..cause it not a love song.but more to inspirational.this song really related to his life. from ordinary people now become a singer.. and now this song become my new favourite song. he's damn hot tooo..... Heart him alottttttt!!!!!!

officially under UBD

2009-05-25T13:45:00.000+08:00

hello been ages didn't post anything here..been busy with clinical
and my up coming exam.
good news on 25th may 2009. we officially move to UBD and today is the
grand opening of our class. i didn't attend the ceremony cause I'm simply being lazy.
i just back from kb this noon my dad sent me.

oh ya just a short one. yesterday we celebrated my dad b'day which supposed to in 18th of may
but due to me and my sis wasn't around so make it happened on saturday
will upload the photo. i forget to transfer then to my lappy.ok till here. off to bed
i'm soooooo sleepyyyyy!!!!

happy birthday to daddy

2009-05-18T15:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DAD
coming 45th
wishes you all the best, happy and success in anything you do
we love you so much.
we'll try our best to make you happy especially now.
your hard working is worthy
you're the best father.never regret to have you in our life.

went to miri

2009-05-16T17:52:00.000+08:00

yesterday(friday) i went to miri with my boyfriend.
just jalan and visited his relative there.
before went back home i we drop by at emart hehe.
i managed to garbed something. gosh! tak tahan mata ini melihat
it was a gawai sale.. the discount is up to 70%.

pose ngalih lah tu..hahahaha..i really love this guy.

i'm in love with bag i bought it at KK last time
apa kan?hahaha jauh jua planting cerita saya dari miri ke KK.
*sign just to share

i kind of like this, i don't know why, maybe because i never had one in my closet.

and this heel.. only the cheap one but i love it.

after that we went to the stalled to fill in our empty sack...we eat bbq chicken
yummmy!!! i love it.

bullshit guy!!!

2009-05-16T17:24:00.002+08:00

oh...god..please.why this kind of people still in this earth.
someone add me through msn ,which he knew my email from facebook..
i just wanna a be friend with anyone and that one of the purpose why i create it.
and come this guy which i accepted a few minute ago.
he online with me, and saying that he want to sex cam with me...he so horny
urghhhhhh! so bloody jerk!!! that was really rude.
and i totally mad right now..
gosh!what he think i'm?????
beware with this guy Brky-89@hotmail.com.
oooomggggg! luckily my friend lina was here with me..
auw!!!banar ku sumpah banar2 wah ia tadi..
and he still carry on with his topic.and wanted to show me his Ding Dong...
yuuuuckkkk!!!! that disgusting
i'm not that desperate
shit!!! i hate this feeling.he totally spoil my good mood..

clinical placement

2009-05-11T16:09:00.000+08:00

future nurse to be

c teah happy sangat2 sal kan pukul 2.and it time to HOME

ready to operate.oops!i mean to dressing patient wound.

start of my final clinical for semester 2.
this time i was attached at ward 22.it female medical ward
basically more to renal patient which had kidney failure.
ummm...today in the ward?
huhuhuhu...
eearllly in the morning we need to face "that" thing.fuh!so not ready for that
a little bit busy Monday ( which i hate a lot)
need to deal with morning care, TPR , D'tix, dressing and a lot lot of stuff..

and aku frust sangat sebab aku gagagagal mengambil darah patient.but luckily staff nurse help ia ckp it ok.sal kadang2 urat tu pandai loss..
i'm soorry i hurt my patient..don't mean it.
ok up til here off to bed.i'm sleepy

pharma oh pharma

2009-05-11T16:04:00.000+08:00

i got my pharmacology result i managed to get only 23/25..
and i FFFFFAAAAILLLL.....
we're supposed to pass 100% for drug calculation
since this involve patient life.
sasak ku banar... just another 2 point.
i do mistake in my unit and this really freak me out!!
mental lah sangat2.

mother's day

2009-05-11T15:45:00.000+08:00

Wishes all the mummy in Brunei and all over the world will enjoy
your special day. be a QUEEN for a day.
free from doing anything and spend any of your time with family

to both my mum.enjoy your day to the fullest.
may god bless both of you.
i love you both.

Again to excapade

2009-05-05T14:01:00.000+08:00

went to exscapade again this time with daus..
( jeles ia sal last night ia nada)

we don't book for the room since we're less that 6.we only spent $52.60.just ok.
unlike the night before.

after that we went to Q-lap mall. tried to find something for my mum at Victoria secret
but still haven't got anything yet.

i'm done until here,need to sleep..

2009-05-05T12:02:00.000+08:00

sorry, kind of late post..
last Saturday i had my nutrition test.well not so hard paper
the problem is i'm not revise..ain't gonna cry for the result
since i didn't prepared anything for that.
this lately my schedule pack and unorganized..and this give difficulties to me.
especially now everyone is getting ready for up coming exam which held this June
i learn nothing and i hate it. knowing it final 1st year exam
i want to pass my exam and promote to 2nd year
being so-called senior!!!
so need to regain back my study mood and repack them.
for the moment i'm busy with my up coming test pharmacology
DRUG CALCULATION
define it a bit difficult i had left maths for many year..
huh! not that long but my brain doesn't work properly
lagggging.....

after nutrition test we went to ckg sendi house for adau gayo celebration.
had alot lot of fun..almost all 23rd intake went there..* serrrrbuuuu!!

some of the picture at ckg sendi house...

meerol,me and jun

classic kamu 3 ah..c erza lah nampak old school baju kebaya x plus the glass

c meerol tengah memilih candy kan d tapau ke hostel

i kind of like this picture c erza and nabillah ber'asmara dana'

ester (didie) and me. ke-si-an si teah inda nampak

si nabillah promo rambut si daus. berulah wah ia ne..

the best friends

jun and hubby sweet couple.

tot kn gambar sendiri ada tia si meerol "enter-the-frame"

i spent the whole day sleep.i need to repay back all my sleepless night.didn't get enough rest and sleep this few day. TIRED!!!! i met my hubby around 5pm. i been missing him so much... and at night around 8-ish pm went to escapade sushi with my buddies *grrrrr craving for california maki and idako... *yummy
just imagine we spent $148.90 for our meals that night.. * ish ish bankrupt bankrupt

escapade sushi gadong
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jun and his beloved one
lina apa ko liat tu?

erza and azmi love of his life

si lina ngantuk dah..

it me.basically that night semua ber 'couple' except me and lina single mingle

Went To Meragang

2009-05-02T19:28:00.000+08:00

teah,lina and erza ready to jump.. alum sempat ku snapshot c erza d bawah sdh..hahaha

finally after million time bru tah menjadi lompatan c lina.. unlike me.. hahaha berdasur wah

vain eh..hahaha

shadow of us..

actually alot lot of stuff i wishes to updated since the connection kind of suck so maybe next time..

all the pictures above are taken at meragang beach, muara..
had so much fun except c jun, she no long stay hostel since her family moved on to kpg.tamoi.
well, kind of boring without you...
maybe take time.missed you beb!!!

2009-04-29T20:22:00.000+08:00

hello again..
afternooon me,shidah and lina went to MOE, cause shidah need to register English 'o' level exam for his bf sister.right after that we went to ong sum ping for appointment. thank to god i'm totally health.. and after done with those stuff shidah sent me and lina to daus place since we plan to hiking at tasek lama..
my god! it been a long time i don't go for jog.. and i easily got tired and short of breath.. if i did it every 3 times a week it not possible i can't losing my weight.. i'm craving for my old body..* huhuhu..i know it take a lot lot of time to lose my weight.it ok i wait patiencely..stress stress * toinkk

so time to release tension...

c marul tercucir..hahaha *jk

titanic nda menjadi

erza ambil air wuduhu

*huhu paksa gambar sendiri hahaha

vain jua kami tu

plan kn candid tp nya c marul meliat.*isk isk spoil banar

pa ko buat tu daus?

lompatan yang tidak menjadi..

me

Saksi Kan Lah Ulah c Erza.. Hyper lah Ia Ari Ne.

try to look at the picture carefully what the different?almost the same za..hahaha

berulah wa banar drg dua ane..

p/s = connection is suck for the moment i can't upload all the pictures.mybe next time..

2009-04-29T13:42:00.000+08:00

Katy Perry - Thinking 0f You

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got a seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes.

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What do I do would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into.

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay.

she had a boyfriend. who was an army. he died then she had another boyfriend but still she can't forget her old boyfriend. she just can't erase the memories they had. even though she has another boyfriend, she still loves her "dead" boyfriend..

that the story line of the song i kind of like this song so much.tho it never happened to me.but it touch my heart accidentally.

yeeeppppy!!!!!!!

2009-04-29T12:59:00.000+08:00

yes!! I'm happy

this morning no class until 10.30am.. we had ENGLISH class and yahoo!!! no class in the afternoon still figuring where to go in afternoon, right after my appointment at ong sum ping..
some of my friends plan to hiking at tasek lama but not much people joining i think..
since certain of them busy with up coming TEST this Saturday..
speaking about test i haven't study anything yet
other word " ZERO "
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being so lazy and not in the mood toward it..oh!god please help me..
i'm tired with last minute study but what else can i do.I'm addict to it
it kind of my routine whenever TEST/EXAM coming
really annoying right
i just can't held it.seriously!

I Missed Tooo Much Things

2009-04-28T16:56:00.000+08:00

hello!!!
it been a long long time i didn't not update my blog..
been busy and i even missed so much thingS.what had been happened last week
so just short brief on Mon and Tue campus,wed went to Tasek Lama, Thur BBQ at jun place and (for more refer to ERZA blog)Fri-Mon went Somewhere and therefore
i just came back to campus today it self on TUESDAY.
gosh!!!i missed my friends, my room, i missed my lappy and the MOST i missed a lot of event!!!! *mental
to AYU i missed u tooo...*toinkk
speak about her i didn't get to see her today since we needed to go for spread room due to
HEALTH PROMOTION PRESENTATION
so far the presentation, we did it well and to erza and line who spent til late night to finished up with bookmark and phamplets and to shidah for helping with the phamplets, me with the slide
and to jun as a BSE model and nabillah thank you so much for co-operation.
somehow it worthy

Just random picture of me and family

Me and bro

bro and mum

nice pose

the sisters and bro

sarra my 2nd last sister

me and my beloved daddy

me,i kind of like this picture don't know why..

my bro Joe and Daddy

my sister Maylisa and me

SMSMSM

went to tasek lama

2009-04-22T18:03:00.000+08:00
ok..nothing much today, morning went to campus.afternoon somewhere 2.30pm meeting with PMS (pengiran mysalwa) our deputy principal regarding hostel rule..and the meeting last at 3.45pm... so we join other colleague to tasek lama for hiking..unfortunately we're to late went we reach there they wasn't there anymore so we (the best friend) just have look around and take fresh air. honestly i never been there before and this is the first time and the place not that bad.clean and very much comfortable..here some of the pictures.. really happy!it been a long time we didn't spend a good time together. what i mean just 5 of us.

let the pictures speak how we really enjoy our moment together..cause we believed someday those thing hardly to happened again.. so since there is a chance why not grab it.thank guy for the memories.. ok until here..til we meet again with different story..

.......

2009-04-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

"EVERYDAY IS A GIFT THAT WHY IT CALLED PRESENT"

i love this quote so much. i don't know why but it give a lot lot of meaning
which not all people can understand it..
it start went i was attached in ward 22.. seeing alot of stuff especially who fight for their life..
they spend every single of their moment very wisely
i started to love myself,my family,my love and all people around me..
i had this one patient who suffered leukemia
he's one year younger than me..
he struggle enough to fight for his disease in order to live..
go on for chemotherapy, lumber puncture, everyday platelet transfusion
he totally brave man, not all people had that sort of courage..
and from him i learnt to appreciate my every moment and
even my health.
i not i'm afraid to die but at least i've done with all my reponsibilities before i go
it will feel so much better.i think..
i become the new me. i even say i love you not even to my love one but to my sibling and my friends too
cause i don't know how much time do i've.
so before too late i want everyone know that i damn love them so much

not only that i even learn to accept all the good and bad with open heart
there must be a reason behind it.. i do believed in it.
i admit sometime it easier say than do it..
like me, it take an age to accept something that totally insane
but no other option like it or not accept it
it "jai ho" or destiny..haha

i feel something on my eye like i become heavier.. and more..
haha.. my pillow is calling me.need to go to bed..
haha.. i just don't understand why I'm being sentimental this lately.. like i prefer to had something sweet and slow.. just so not me.. haha.. actually that not the real case the thing is i don't know what to post and i try not to leave my blog more than 2 weeks without update anything.but the post above is so-true me..hahaha..i miss my hubby.

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Everyday Is A Gift From A God

2009-04-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

As I waken each morning from the shadows of night,
To a clear blue sky and the sun shining bright,
I am filled with wonder at the glorious sight.
Every day is a gift from the Lord.
For the world so bright and fair,
Sunshine and rainbows, joy I can share,
For the chance to love and care, thank You, Lord.
As I greet a new morning, I can hear my heart sing;
And my spirit soars like a bird on the wing.
I will find life's meaning, and the joy it can bring.
Every day is a gift from the Lord.
For the time to learn and grow,
Kindness and friendship, love I can show,
For your grace which makes me whole, thank You, Lord.
As I travel Life's journey, I will not be afraid; for I'll walk with Christ.
He'll show me the way. I will face tomorrow filled with courage and faith.
Every day is a gift from the Lord. Thank you, Lord.

on saturday..

2009-04-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

Saturday went back to lumut to..
ummm...before that i spent time with my hubby..
i miss u by..

umm..by punya jari luka..totally deep bleed
emergency sent him to clinic for further dressing..
luckily i'm a ~~nurse-to-be~~ (promo lah sikit)haha
so i stopped the bleed, since I've tapau fabon cream from hospital and blue solution
before sent him to clinic..
pity him..
guess?tot he a brave men haha..
actually he's not..
while odw to clinic he asked alot lot of question..
what people gonna do with his finger, does it pain while dressing
i tried my best to calm him but fail and he said to me
"does it pain?"
and i answered "nope! terasa sajuk saja"
and he look at me and said
" bby u lie to me, i know you been practiced to say so to your patient and i'm your patient right now"
and i laugh..
since luka nya dalam paksa lah di jahit..
time kana jahit to he hold my hand tightly..
so after done with dressing and those thing
i sent him home..
even he's in pain still he made some sort of funny stuff
and he even make fun of his own finger..
love you by..

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my friday

2009-04-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

hehe..this is my lovely laptop..lup u!!!

haha..study but the fact I'm blogging

it been a while..
ok, my last friday just fine not much to do..
when back to kb met my family..
umm..i spent most of my time in bed..
missed my bed damn much!!haha..
around 5pm i went to kb ti fetched my beloved hubby and when to his place
around 9-ish went back to bandar..

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LAST DAY OF CLINICAL

2009-04-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

dunia ku syurga ku hahaha...

me and zyrah (my co-worker in ward 11) nice doing business with you jeng..haha

me alone...

YEAH!!YEAH!!
I'm free... mederka( spelling) finally i can rest my body after few weeks busy with tide schedule in hospital and on Saturday campus..
one burden is gone left one more TEST! TEST!
bengang ku banar!!!!! sasak i haven't study anything not even single topic.it not I'm being lazy bum but too tired with clinical area.don't say I'm not good in fixing my schedule cause I've try my best effort on it..just thing doesn't work..
so i don't know what to give tomorrow since I've nothing in mind..
i had my sweet time revise just now still I'm blur and motiveless like my brain giving me signal "hey! buddy u need a rest"

p/s= harith aku curi gmbar arh blog mu just my pix

CONGRATS

2009-04-14T21:58:00.000+08:00

to kidah and lifah
both of them are my old friends at st.angela's and smsa
congrats's to both of you cause listed under ITB
BEST OF LUCK
Those who also listed say congrats to yourself..

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suprise!!

2009-04-14T20:46:00.000+08:00

i've stuck in the lobby for couple hours
still figure what my attention came here actually
to blogging?
nah!! i dont have anything to post until now
but the fact people out there should know is
~~I'M BORED!!!!~~
i just don't know what to do..

oh.. ya speak about last night

right after aftrenoon shift me and my other company
( azmi, erza, zyrah, lina, teah, shidah, daus, gdin, nani and his bf)
those who involved but the name not post here
yeah! you've a right to mad hahaha
all mentioned above had involved in suprised jun for her birthday
it is last minute plan since most of us busy and yet some of us not in the same shift
but so glad eveything work just fine
we suprised her...
guess where??
at Q-LAP MALL
not inside the building but then out side at ~~PARKING LOTS~~
haha..can imagine but that the truth
tapi yang penting ia MALU
and nda caya..
after that so-called suprised
kami sambung lagi di hostel..
and WE slept around 1-ish am
huhuh~ sleeping brabis
aku lagi morning shift...

p/s: whatever it is happy always enjoy every inches of your time..alway2x remember good thing come once

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happy birthday

2009-04-12T21:43:00.000+08:00

happy ~~21st birthday~~ my dear friend..

coming 21st is the start of your journey..
it a key for you to fly freely without anyone stop you..
not just your mum's apron string but free to do whatever you want..
making your own decision
you have a key to control your own life already
but becoming 21st is a sort of milestone that you're finally your own
person and truly live your own life now!!
so enjoy your beautiful moment
you only through them once
so cherish them to the fullest..

♥♥♥♥♥♥ june@ masjunidah waty ♥♥♥♥♥♥

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today

2009-04-11T13:54:00.000+08:00

hi!! there.. it almost 1 week i didn't post anything here...
oh!!!damn missed blogging *toink*

ok!!i'm not feeling well this past few days..
i'm sick sick and super sick..
i hate it damn much!!!

today i had nursing and health test!!
i've no idea what i wrote in the paper but doesn't matter..
somehow i made an effort to revise a past couple days
i even bring my note to ward

umm..not much to tell this week just fair busy working
next week final day in ward 11
so my next rotation will be somewhere MAY
but seriously I'm not looking forward for the next clinical
i just want to stay in campus and study!!

left less than 2 month, we'll move to UBD..
i dont know what my feeling a a pond it.
happy? sad?
still figure out!! * wawawa*

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UNPERFECT ME

2009-04-05T16:41:00.000+08:00

i'm not PERFECT girl. my hair doesn't always stay in place and i spill things a lot
i'm pretty CLUMSY and sometime i've broken heart.
my FRIENDS and i sometime FIGHT
and
maybe some days nothing goes right.
but when i think about it and take a step back
i remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe.
just maybe ...
i like being ~~UNPERFECT.~~
because from being unperfect i found the real me..
who i'm, i can be myself
and people turn to love just the ways i'm..
so those who doesn't know me that well stop pushing yourself criticising or even talk shit at the back of me

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this is so TRUE

2009-04-05T16:05:00.000+08:00

yup!this is so true..hahaha currently I'm working at ward 11. bored fun and tired. i bored and tired not because too many work need to be done but because NOTHING and NOTHING to do.. seriously. 85% relax and the rest doing TPR, ADMISSION and so on. i didn't learn any new experience and skill in this ward compare to my previous ward. this 1 week i define myself...ummmm...less tired and more BORING words came out from my lip..hahaha..

Check this out!

2009-03-30T23:32:00.001+08:00

RELEX

2009-03-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

i spent my time with hubby right now...hehehe..
ok!after 3 weeks campus, today my 1st day of clinical area for second rotation.. currently at ward 11
umm.. kan cakap siuk nda jua.. but most important this ward too relex..haha.. ok lah next time lagi updated i just dropped by sja.. my pillow calling me..

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happy ANNIVERSARY

2009-03-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO US
may god bless our relationship..i do love you..hope this relationship lasting longer
thank you for always stand by my side when i happy and also when i'm hurt.
no words that can describe how much i do want you in my life..
~~love and miss you so much~~

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UNTITLE

2009-03-28T13:10:00.000+08:00

again i being hurt by u.. i don't why every time i look onto your face, my heart beating faster, i breath every more vigorous..i try my best even more harder to forget what have you done to me but still i can.i tot I'm strong enough but actually here is my weakness.

it not I'm not learning to forgive and forget in fact i do want those thing away from me.. too far away from i don't want to have that feeling of hate..but I'm just a human..

to my baby, I'm sorry i put all the pressure on you.. i don't mean to shout at you..

DOWN!!!!

2009-03-26T13:59:00.000+08:00

ok!stress stress.. i really wishes to shout after i step out from OCSE skill lab.. huh!like I've done all PROCEDURE quite well for station 3 and 1 suddenly on station 2 i missed my BP procedure.. which i haven't done it due to BP set problem.. fuh! tot it was new BP set.. but still got problem with the Mercury.. damn!! i do hate this.. it totally freak me out. the bell is rang when i about to pump it.. oh!my god i wishes i could turn back and do the procedure again.. now all i can to pray that I'll pass.. i hope teacher could reconsider that.

god! i don't know how to express my feeling bbbuttt this mistake totally took my mood away..

all my friend went to the mall to celebrate this so-called "victory" hahaha.. well me? nah! I've no mood for that. my mind keep on thinking about my OSCE i really hope i could pass this exam. i want to maintain my OSCE result in fact I'm craving i could get much much better than last semester 2A 2B AND 1D.. since this semester we only perform 3 procedure. imagine ONLY 3 procedure.. i just depend on my luck now..

STRESS + HAPPY

2009-03-25T17:33:00.000+08:00

hello everbody!
it been a while i didn't update my blog.. coz this few days i been busy with campus,
~~OSCE~~ revision ( oh! nooo..), while at night CHILLED with my buddies..
tomorrow will be BIG BIG day.. it my aniversary AND at same time my OSCE EXAM..(skill exam) fuh! now i'm a bit nervous and speechless. try to make my self COOL yup! i managed to do it but it just for a few minute..
i really hope everything will be ok and more even worst i'm this first session from skill lab 3
to my buddies.. good luck k.mudahan tah tani semua pass.. remember all the important procedure and do maintain the sterility

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AGAINST

2009-03-23T14:01:00.000+08:00

OK! This gonna be a very ~~BIG~~ issues. like all people been talking about this.. last saturday our principle informed us that our ~~ALLOWENCE~~ will be reduced from ~~$ 370~~ to $348? huh! that really make all of us down and broken hearted..
this gives difficulities to those who need to pay their laptop. foods for those stayed in hostel all other facilities..
more over we had so much differences with UBD. where we need to work at ward.. for other need to go for night shift and work on sunday too.. please lah for those who concern try to think about it..
supppose we will receive
$370 for 1st year
$570 for 2nd year and
$620 for 3rd year
but now on in ~~DREAM~~..

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MY SUNDAY

2009-03-23T12:47:00.000+08:00
hello!everybody..
i had a very good weekend anyway..NOTHING bothering me so far and that awesome! haha.. umm.. for more i spent lot lot of time with my baby.. actually we plan to watch movie but then we canceled the plan since he's super duper tired so i just went to his place we chat and watched movie together fuh! it been a while we don't do those thing since i moved to bandar.need to run after my future career tho this wasn't what i want.. and my boyfriends to he need to stay focus to his work.. this lately he been so busy due to urgent request.we only meet in weekend but not that often cause i need to spend my time with my family too.. more over he don't want to disturb me. see my boyfriend very2 understanding that what make me love him even more deeper each day.. hehehe.. thank you baby for understand our situation

i started to miss him right now..

this some of the shoot that i took..

Unusual Benefits of Friendship

2009-03-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

Unusual Benefits of Friendship

Many benefits of friendship are well known. Friends offer

1. closeness with others,
2. a listening ear to share challenges or joys,
3. a shoulder to lean on when life is difficult,
4. companionship,
5. the ability to tell you the truth when others might not (assuming you want to hear the truth).One of the unusual benefits of friendship is you never have to worry about being homeless.

The importance of friendship? Ask homeless people.

Friends don't let friends live on the streets.

But the biggest benefit that friendships offer each of us, whether we're just entering daycare or a 90 year old great grandmother, is happiness.

Friends are an aid to the young, to guard them from error; to the elderly, to attend to their wants and to supplement their failing power of action; to those in the prime of life, to assist them in noble deeds. ---Aristotle

What price can you place on having one true best friend who's always there for you?

MAKING FRIEND IS FUN

Many people prefer the safety of being lonely because they're secure in their loneliness. Sounds bizarre, i know.

They don't have to risk rejection and a hurt heart if they approach others and others don't want to be friends.

One thing kids need to learn is that when people decide not to be friends with us, we don't always know the reason.

Lots of times it has nothing to do with whom we are as people. It's often about the other person.

And the thing about life is we all deal with rejection. Yet, we survive, we don't fall to pieces, life goes on.

Helping grasp they are beautiful, unique PERSON who deserve love and all the benefits of friendship that come from friends gives THEM the courage to make new friends.

-------> TO MY SISTER I AGREE WITH SOME OF THE TEXT YOU WROTE..

MOVIE

2009-03-19T16:31:00.000+08:00

i want to watch this movie.. really i haven't watch it. i knew it kind of too late but who care.. my problem.

NOVEL

2009-03-19T15:42:00.000+08:00
so now i'm craving for this next novel by Sophie kinsella

Lexi wakes up in a hospital bed after a car accident, thinking it’s 2004 and she’s a twenty-five-year old with crooked teeth and a disastrous love life. But, to her disbelief, she learns it’s actually 2007 - she’s twenty-eight, her teeth are straight, she’s the boss of her department - and she’s married! To a good-looking millionaire! How on earth did she land the dream life??!
She can’t believe her luck - especially when she sees her stunning new home. She’s sure she’ll have a fantastic marriage once she gets to know her husband again. He’s drawn up a ‘manual of our marriage’, which should help.

But as she learns more about her new self, chinks start to appear in the perfect life. All her old colleagues hate her. A rival is after her job. Then a dishevelled, sexy guy turns up. and lands a new bombshell.

What the **** happened to her? Will she ever remember? And what will happen if she does?

so anyone who have this novel please lend it to me.. hahaha

I've read all this novel even watched the movies.. and it really good.. i recommended should read them.. it wont feel the same if u just watch the movie.. unlike reading..

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2009-03-18T13:07:00.001+08:00

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whatEVER!!!!

2009-03-17T12:39:00.000+08:00

I'M FREE!!!!

no PRESENTATION!!! tapi nya jangan silap pagi tadi rushing buat slide untuk HEALTH PROMOTION...hahaha. frustrated and tired but it okey at least I've time to fixed some of them..

by the way this morning we had yoga time.. release our stress.. am i under stress? not exactly just moderate.. but most importantly i had fun with it.. all i can think is peaceful.. should try it sometime.. it help a lot..

MANCHESTER UNITED vs LIVERPOOL

2009-03-15T17:50:00.001+08:00

ok! last night me and my hubby watched football match. between LIVERPOOL and MANCHESTER UNITED.. so finally LIVERPOOL WON!!! and it really make me a bit down.. with the score 4-1.. liverpool managed to get the last goal 1 minute before the game lasted.. SO LUCKY!!

meanwhile goals for LIVERPOOL scored by torres,gerrard,aurelio and dossena

finally ronaldo for MANCHESTER

but it ok still i'm MANCHESTER UNITED best fan!!!

new LOOK

2009-03-15T17:27:00.000+08:00

My current new hair.. nice give comment if not nice just SHUT UP!!!

my HHHHHAAIRRRRR.....

2009-03-14T18:11:00.000+08:00
huhuhuuh... i just curl my hair and it totally 'UGLY' I think.. wanted to cried after i done with last blow.. i want to straight my hair but needed to wait for another couple of weeks.. hate to see my current look.. paloi! i just paid $30 for it sasak ku banar! even now!!!!!!!

bdw today semua presentation done very well thank you to umairah.. she the one who do the slide..

bah!ok lah kan balik kb ku ne.. my boyfriend tunggu di lur sudah.heheheh

everyday is a give

2009-03-14T17:49:00.001+08:00

hy there!

1st DAY OF CLASS

2009-03-10T16:43:00.000+08:00

on Monday night i missed heard 1 of westlife song 'fool again' and guess what? i started to miss all of their songs.. now I'm at lobby try to download some of their song and i finally got them.. hahaha funny me right.. but who care. i love them as long as i don't disturb someone life right?

okey! as usual today start of class after semester break.. tired? no!not at all.. fun? ummm sort of.. BUT during health promotion class that was really fucking bored.. felt like want to escape the class but what to do I'm to good girl *yuck!*

moreover, can you imagine we in the class is 36 (cause of our group go for clinical) and her voice.. ooooohhhh!my god very very tiny and soft.. kind of whispering with us. and expect us to concentrate during her lesson. gasps! i almost fall a sleep but with a mean of respect so just stay a wake..

SHOPPING WITH BABY

2009-03-10T15:57:00.000+08:00

sweet you

vain me..

me or sayang yang kan bali barang ne??? hahaha

me vs gulali..cuba sapa lawa???

sayang tengah pilih2 candy..

me and my baby love

okey last night my hubby sent me home to hostel.. before that we dropped at hua ho superstore( not sure the spelling) to buy my stuff.. hehehe..

still BROKEN..

2009-03-09T13:14:00.000+08:00

i wake up early morning with sunlight dazzling my eyelids..

i turn over and bury my throbbing head in the pillow, trying to sink into sleep again for a couple of minute.which normally i would find very easy.but today, something niggling at me.. but what??

i'm still HURT.. really hate this feeling.. it been past few days already but still i can't forget them.why? WHY? why? what wrong with me???

should be i forget and let it go.. feel ridiculous!!! body is suddenly all shaky..
i think i realized for the first time quite how deeply i feel about YOU.

DO MISSED MY SAYANG SO MUCH NOW!!

ELAUN oh... ELAUN

2009-03-07T17:56:00.000+08:00
elaun keluar udah but still i DON'T get a chance to withdraw cash.. one of the main reason i'm lazzyyy bum.. to tired to drive from LUMUT to KB.. uuhuk!! see lah tomorrow or on monday.. oh ya! sadly elaun keluar sebulan? huh? what the hack!! kemana tia sebulan lagi elaun kami? humph! bagi mental saja tahun ne.. stresss ku......

BLEEDING

2009-03-07T17:24:00.000+08:00
it been three days had past.. but still all the words that she spoke to me play repeatedly in my mind.. try to forget it.but i failed to do so.. All at once i feel close to tears.it really hurt me so badly. I suddenly blurt out.unable to stop myself.i kept on wondering why me? what i done wrong toward you.. come 'ON' be mature you're not kid anymore what past just let it go.. I'm sick and tired being treated like this in fact I've try my best for the sake of my relationship with your brother. 5 year wasn't a very short time. furthermore there is a lot lot of stuff me and your brother been thru together.. please100x i'm begging you accept and respect me as your brother gf.. i don't ask for more only that. is that the hardest thing to be done? hell no!

one more thing never question me how much i love your brother it only between me and your brother and i never play with your brother heart.you don't have any right to ask that type of question and don't judge me just the way i do.. stop disturbing me and my life. uhhugh! FOR GOD SAKE PLLLLEEASEEEE.....! do help.cause sayang jua belajar tinggi tapi inda jua faham bahasa or finally READ MY WORDS!!!!! DON'T MAKE ME DO SOMETHING THAT YOU TOTALLY NOT GONNA EXPECT ME TO DO.that you need to remember all the time cause i'm fed up to repeat those words.. Always like that whenever you have problem with your brother ( recently YOU create it) i'm the one and only place you easily mad and attack. cause you know i'm your brother only2 weakness.. KENAPA KAN ADA MANUSIA YANG SEKEJAM KO NE? tried to change yourself. now i'm just your bro gf soon if i be one of your family member,are you gonna do the same thing to me????
hell noooo!

thank hubby for understand me.. you knew me better than her.. do love you so much. you the reason why i still here.. you know i can't do this without you.. even now i'm fucking HURT.. and here you are stand just beside me.. i really hope your sister will change her feeling toward me.. cause i can't stand with this. she totally get into my nerve.. i've try my best to ignore this feeling. tapi ia makin menguji kesabaran me..
I'm unaware of anything around us.the world has narrowed to me and my mouth spewing out all my innermost thoughts and hurt.. I barely know what i'm saying anymore.all i know is, it feels good.
Is this what therapy is like??

FRIEND OR FOE?

2009-02-26T16:06:00.001+08:00
Til today,i still wondering what friendship mean.sometime it easy 2 say then done.but 3 things i knew about friendship is 1. Someone you can trust 2.someone you can share all your happy and sad moment.. 3. Someone you can depend on aside our family..but too sad not all people know about it..even appreciate the relationship between themselve.. The most will hurt you is when your friend share her secrect to some of her/his friend while the other left unknown.. Why is that happen? Isn't we're friend?this show that person never treat your as a friend.they only come to you when they need something or in problem.. As for me that is 'BULLSHIT' good friends will SHARE all sad and happiness NOT only happiness.please those who had treat their friend so badly.do reconsider before all the memories fly with the wind.when that time come.it hard to catch back what special thing we ever owe.because GOOD THING ONLY COME ONCE.IF CAME FOR 2ND TIME YOU CONSIDER LUCKY.
To all my friends who ever come and go in my life.I love all..!no matter how the distance keep ur apart.we'll owez be good friends

AHAN THAI RESTAURANT

2009-02-25T16:05:00.000+08:00

OKEY THE PICTURES IF US.. STARVING HAHAHA.. ME AND LINA TOOK OUR DINNER WITH JUN WHILE OTHERS.. OF CAUSE OF THEIR HUBBY.. UHUK!UHUK!

D LOBBY

2009-02-25T15:23:00.000+08:00

atu c jun ia ne merajuk arh kami..hehehe..nda wah lappy nya low bat yth ia jauh dari kami

me and sheedah.. hahaha actually kami ada group discussion but after that masing2 buat krja sndiri... aku memanat skjap ambi gmbar urg...

ok!atu c erza, actually kan candid tapi ne sibuk2 tia meliat. hahaha...

concentrate brabis..

around 2+ pm kami ke lobby kan buat group discussion untuk health promotion presentation kami..

CoNtInUe..........PURPLE ME

2009-02-25T15:04:00.000+08:00

comment something..hahaha..