i've dreamed about my late uncle.. just suddenly i woke up.i started sweating and my heart pounding.. oh ya i almost forgot about him.maybe he came to me to remain me how much i've forgot about him this lately.. i felt like i get pulled down further into the darknest meanest place of my brain and i start suffocating and feel like dying

To the people who lost somebody, it may seem the world just stop moving and that you could not believe it has happened to you. To tell you the truth, I never get over my late uncle. Everytime I think of it, my eyes filled with tears and recalled those moments again. What made matter worse that time, I was undergoing an important qualifying exam. It meant I couldn’t properly say goodbye. As far as I remembered, it was only the few hours of his death that I paid my last respect. I kept recalling those moments again and again where I just sat there as he laid there. My mind kept working out if the moments were real or were just bad dreams. Kept telling myself that I couldnt believed that he was gone already and that I was staring his lifeless body. He looked as alive as I remembered him to be. I didn’t really know what actually happen to him because he was gone so sudden. I couldn’t remember if he was sick or not. Everytime, I went to visit grandma, I felt something missing. Somehow, I wished I had spent more time talking with him.

Coming march,a few week to go it will be 7th year anniversary of his death I think. Though I don’t really remember how many years gone by but the month stays with me forever. Cause...it’s his month of birth. I miss him forever. There's always a saying that goes

you will never know what you are missing until it's gone

I believe that's true. I am going to cherish and love my family so much. As I grow to be more mature than I was yesterday, I learned to keep my family close to my heart. Eversince I got the place to study in bandar, I went through a lot! I missed my mom and my dad so very much that I didnt realised how much they sacrificed for me. It hit me hard and as years gone by, I began to show more love to them than I used to be before it is too late. I hope I have done what I am supposed to be doing as a grand daughter, daughter, sister and a friend..

can believed i cries again.. i'm missing him so badly.. i called my dad just now and he speechless.. like we almost forget his aniversary is coming soon.. i felt bad about it and a shame.